Home Sweet Home

It was 3 years ago today, that we decided to step out in faith and leave the church home that I had grown up in since 3rd grade. It was a decision that had been 6 months in the making.

It was through a long series of events, that we felt it was time to make a move away from the place that we had so dearly loved.

I left behind 17 yrs of memories to make a fresh start and to go where God was calling us. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in my life. To say goodbye to friends and the place you called home. To break away from my husbands family and finally be on our own.

It is the best thing that has happened to us in the almost 8 yrs we've been married. We met there in HS youth group and started dating when we were 16 going on 17, and 17 going on 18.

We came to the point in our adult life that we needed to be independent and on our own and have a fresh start to things. That's when we found CRCC :)

I'll never forget the first time I went up there during the week to find out more info about the church. I met Brian and Dave, but had absolutely no idea that they were pastor/ and music pastor. Just talking to them getting to know them, and then Brian says, "I'll see you next week at church." And I'm thinking that he's just someone who goes to church there. I was shocked

(in a good way) when I saw he was the pastor, and also glad I didn't say anything stupid a few days before. At first when they mentioned that church was in the gym, I was taken back by it. Thinking, well that's an interesting place for church-coming from just leaving a super traditional Evangelical Covenant church. Up to that point, I had never been to such an impactful worship service at a church- besides CHIC '97 and Christian Challenge in college. Music moves my soul in ways that nothing else can, and to me that was a huge thing. I loved that everyone was so friendly- (people at our old church were starting to be a little snotty). I love that the word of God is preached with such a passion. Most of all I love the church's vision for Missions. I've always loved doing Missions work, and it was very important to go to a church that was rooted in Missions and especially community outreach. I loved the small church feel, coming from a church that had 1200 people or so. Most of all I loved that God was calling us here and made us feel at home here.

God has been working on my heart in so many ways during the last 3 years. The biggest one, was being re-baptised. I was baptised by sprinkling at 9 yrs old, and had accepted Jesus into my heart when I was 3 yrs old. That was one of the things I fought against the most, was the thought of being baptised again. I had never felt the inclination to do that at my old church in the slightest bit. I even talked to Brian about it, but just kept fighting it. Finally I felt the Holy Spirit convicting me that it was something that I needed to do. My life went through some crazy times from the time I was 9-25. I had struggled with drinking heavily in college, and going a bit wild, and then with my suprise "grace" . Alot had happened since I first accepted Christ. I was baptised on Dec.23,2007, and I have never felt such overwhelming peace as I have that day. I remember coming home and laying down and it felt like I was physically surrounded in peace and contentment and just crying because this must be what it will be like in heaven some day. Peace and no sorrows.

The Holy Spirit was at work on my heart, and for the first year or so that we went there, it seemed like I would cry or be touched by how moving the service was. My heart ached for God.

It was also the first time I truly saw my husband really happy to go to church. His personality fits so well with that of our leadership team, and even hearing him sing, was music to my ears!

God has blessed me with some amazing friends, and I am so very glad that I know them, that my life wouldn't be complete without them :) God has even opened my eyes up to what life is like with bigger families-our old church had maybe 2 kids each, where here is 3-5, and to more people who homeschool. My perspectives have been changed for the better. Part of me wishes we hadn't made the choice to not have any more kids right after Braden was born, and before we could see how awesome big families are, and the fun dynamics between siblings. I am thankful for all of our friends we've met through our 2 different small groups-sharing in joys and struggles together. Before we came to crcc, we had honestly never met so many people that we could relate to at church. Everyone was so down to earth, and real. It was extremely hard for us to relate to most people our age at our old church, they had different outlooks on life (and there was a big problem with them being too clicquey(sp?). I was glad to see that people at our church leadership lived modestly just like everyone else.

God has worked on my heart the last 3 years, moving me to be more outgoing and to speak up for those things that I feel passionate about. I was thrilled that our church supported the Walk for Life the last 2 yrs, because my old church didn't and that really hurt! My passion is for helping young women who are experiencing an unplanned pregnancy. I am so glad that I have so many friends at church who are supportive of this as well :)

I am so thankful for my friends from crcc that I've had the opportunity to share my life with. Thank you for being real, and honest and steadfast!

Mark 8:36

"What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul?"

As a Christ Follower, what do you think is so important
(that society deems socially acceptable)

that you are willing to sacrifice your values

and ultimately your soul for?
Right now I am shaken at the thought of it....

The following is an exchange of words between myself and an acquaintance (I would not call her a friend) from my old church-someone who I was in Sunday School class with for several years, went to her baby shower, brought her meals after she had her 2 sons. She was superficially nice, but never sincere, and once told me that only poor people shop at Target.

She is early-mid 30's, married, has 2 young sons, was a corporate career woman, and her husband is a Dr.- I believe in Perinatology or Maternal and Fetal Medicine.

This all began, when I saw that we had mutual friends from church, and clicked on her link to see what was going on in her life. I saw that she was a fan of G.Tiller and of Marriage Equality (for LGBT marriages), so I sent her a note to see what she meant by that.

She replied, stating "We are against anyone being murdered for their beliefs."

This was puzzling to me, so I sent her a reply....

"As a Christian, yes, murder is wrong. He was not a martyr by any means and think of all the thousands and thousands of babies that lost their lives. As a Christian we should fight for the lives of the unborn and for their voice! We should fight for marriage only between a man and a woman! Because that's the way God created us. We shouldn't sacrifice our beliefs to become politically correct, or to what society deems acceptable. It just really suprised me that was something you supported, as someone who we used to go to church with, and as someone who is a mother of 2 small children."

How she replied, shocked me to my core.....

"Megan,I'm not going to get into a discussion about these issues w/ you because we fundamentally disagree. Neil, in his practice, routinely has to counsel women about termination--fetuses w/out brains, spinal cords, etc. That's part of his job description. Some crazy wacko might take it upon themselves to shoot my husband. Please do not contact me again."

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I am shocked beyond words, and deeply saddened at the same time. Granted this is from someone I wouldn't necessarily call a friend, but non the less someone that I was in Sunday School with for a few years, worshipped with, prayed with, celebrated with at the birth of her sons. Someone who I thought had the same beliefs I did.

(Let me just say a disclaimer here that I am not judging or condemning anyone who has ever had an abortion, or considered one. On this subject, I have never been one to judge-because I know it's up to God to work on the individuals heart in his time- and for the healing process to take place)

I have personally known 2 brave women who went through such heartache to continue their pregnancies. The first was a woman at my old church. The first time she got pregnant, her body developed breast cancer, and she was at risk. She decided that she was having the baby, and would cope with the effects of dealing with breast cancer. So several years later, she got pregnant again, and the same thing happened. Her daughter Paige was born, and by the time she was not even 2 yrs old, her mom had lost her fight with breast cancer, and went home to be with the Lord.

The second woman, was actually my husband's cousin's wife. She had already had 2 healthy children without complications, and when she found out she was expecting baby #3, they found that the baby didn’t have a brain and had other deformities. They chose to carry the baby as far as God would have them. It did die and she carried it for another month then delivered it-never even getting to see him, because her husband thought it would crush her. They chose not to have a doctor take it.They were very strong Southern Baptist, and abortion was out of the question for them. I think that she was extremely brave to do what she did-knowing that her baby wouldn't live very long, but still chosing to give it life. She went on to have another pregnancy, with a very healthy baby boy, who is now 3 yrs old.

So when she told me what her husband did for a living, it just shocked me. Is it worth the prestige and achievement in that field of medicine, to sacrifice your beliefs and counsel women for that, when you have small children of your own? Do they not believe that life is sacred, and God created them? At what point do you throw your values out the window?

Another upsetting thing is that she has at least 30 friends I know of from our old church that know of her support for these groups, and I'm pretty sure that non of them have decided to take a stand with her on this subject. Isn't it our jobs as Christians to hold each other accountable on the ways of the Lord, and the teachings of the Bible? Especially on the very fundamental things of life itself and marriage. Have they become so politically correct, or afraid to go against what society thinks is popular, that they fail to take a stand for what they believe in?

I have never felt the battle of spiritual warfare more than I have with these 2 subjects. Even within the Christian community. It has been eye opening to say the least.